Sometimes life won't leave you alone

I couldn't think of an appropriate title so took that from a Pearl Jam song, although it makes it sound as if things have been really bad lately which isn't the case.

The weekend was one of the best I've had for a while actually, and it wasn't even that anything super special was done, it was just carefree. On Saturday I went out to lunch with Virginia and Nicole who I haven't seen since Gin got married in February so that was great, we saw stacks of photos of course and had a nice afternoon. The rest of Saturday involved Ivan and I playing hours upon hours of Sacred. Such a good game, even despite all the bugs in it. We stopped to watch Kill Bill which I liked, but usually I love Tarantino films and this was just so-so. I was expecting some cheesiness like in the old Japanese movies, and I got it, and I found it amusing, but at the same time that was why I didn't love the movie, was just a bit too much I think.

Sunday was an attempted sleep in and then in the afternoon we went to the creek at Reynella and fed the ducks and the geese. I love feeding the ducks but the geese scare me, I have this vision that I'll be pecked and chased, and so my fear provides Ivan with some free entertainment. From there we went to Darren and Christine's and Alex came along too. We had a BBQ, played Kelly Pool for hours while freezing, then went inside and played some Scattergories. It's weird, we can do very little there but always have a good time because we always have heaps of laughs. We all attempted to stay up and watch the Grand Prix but about half way through the race people started getting tired so we all went home. Ivan and I just *had* to play some more Sacred before going to sleep, sad eh?

With Monday being a public holiday it was time for me to head home, so I didn't actually get to spend Ivan's birthday with him, but after such a great weekend I think it's ok.

Hope you all had a good one, the next one is almost here already!

Happy Birthday Ivan!

HAPPY 31st BIRTHDAY to Ivan today, yay!!!!!

It's the first birthday I haven't made a cake or been there to celebrate it, but we had a great weekend and I hope you have a great day today :)

I'll write a more in-depth blog later, this was just my short birthday message :)

A return to regular programming

Hooray for long weekends!!! I can't wait to get back to Adelaide, am leaving work in just under 2 hours and I have absolutely zilch to do today so Bron and I have been playing putt-putt on the computer and doing other non-productive things. Exercising the mind, yeah, that's it! And thanks for the emails peoples, they keep my day non-productive too which is how I like it :D

On Tuesday is Ivan's birthday so this weekend we're sort of celebrating that. We probably won't do much except tv and net tonight, and tomorrow I'm going out to lunch with Virginia and Nicole who I haven't seen for a couple of months but apart from that nothing's been set in stone. We'll probably catch up with Darren, Christine and Alex some time over the weekend, so I'm looking forward to it. We were planning a BBQ but it's getting a bit chilly for that this weekend, we'll just play it by ear.

The annoying thing is I ordered Ivan's birthday present a couple of months ago in the hopes it would get here in time and maybe I'll be lucky and it will arrive in time for Christmas. It was on backorder, which was only meant to take 2 weeks, damn Americans. No matter.

Hmm, what else... The pub on Wednesday night with people from work was really good. We had a few more people joining us but in the end it was the same 4 of us who stayed until the end last Friday night too, lol. And one of them is my boss so it's nice to have a boss you can joke around with and have a few drinks with. I'm lucky I work in such a friendly environment.

Anyways, enough for now. Hope y'all have a good long weekend. Good on the ANZACs!!! And damn you QLDers for having an extra day on top of the one we all get :P

Emmy

You think everything I say is about you anyway, but this one is all for you girl.

Please stop bugging me every damn place I go. You don't trust me, you hate me, you think I'm an awful person - I get it. Your message is loud and clear. I am tired of explaining every little thing I do or say and am done with it. So please leave me alone, if nowhere else than at least at my own fucking website. You're the most unstable person I've ever met, with your talking nice to me on Tuesday night this week for example, and then turning into megabitch the next night.

I want nothing more to do with you, so fuck the hell off. You made this public, not me. But yeah, you're never at fault...

Never

A while ago I wondered if I should censor myself here and was told, and agreed, not to. I'm not going to start now. I write what I feel. Stop reading if you think every single entry is about you.

Trust no one

Sometimes, unfortunately, you find out you trusted the wrong ones...

Me is bored

I don't really have anything to write as is usually the case but I need something to take up my time. I was feeling better this morning and now the nausea has hit again. Wonderful. I will try and not log on tonight and just lie down and take care of myself for a change, but I have a feeling I'll get bored and will be lured to the internet like a moth to a flame!

Since life is rather dull right now I'm going to post another email thing I got which I actually liked. Sorry :P

The most destructive habit - worry
The greatest joy - giving
The greatest loss - self respect
The most satisfying work - helping others
The ugliest personality trait - selfishness
The most endangered species - dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource - our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm" - encouragment
The greatest problem to overcome - fear
The most effective sleeping pill - peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease - excuses
The most powerful force in life - love
The most dangerous pariah - a gossiper
The world's most incredible computer - the brain
The worst thing to be without - hope
The deadliest weapon - the tongue
The two most power-filled words - "I Can"
The greatest asset - faith
The most worthless emotion - self-pity
The most beautiful attire - a smile
The most prized possession - integrity
The most contagious spirit - enthusiasm

/spam

Another rivetting update

I'm still at work but thought I'd quickly update before I go home because I haven't in a little while. Today just flew, but I have a feeling the rest of the weekend is going to drag on with me doing piles and piles of filing. Joy.

I really need some sleep and am feeling sick, not sure what the feeling sick is from but Xy reckons it's because I'm not getting any sleep. It's possible. It started last night and all today I just felt like I was going to throw up and/or collapse at my desk. Thankfully neither of those things happened. I'll be seeing the doctor again this weekend to see if I should continue with these tablets for another month or not. Although they're not letting me sleep I have lost a few kilos just by using them so they're doing what they're supposed to. But lack of sleep means I have no energy to actually exercise which would be the healthy thing to do. Catch 22. Like I'll just lie in bed for hours and hours waiting to fall asleep, and then when my alarm goes off my body wants to sleep! Stupid Mel.

The weekend was pretty good actually. Ivan came up here to visit, sorta wasn't sure if he could or not and then in the last minute he could but he only stayed one night due to work. Was still good though. After work on Friday, because Bron and I were both in Berri for the first Friday night, like, ever, a few of us went to the pub for a few drinks which was really good. Then Ivan came up, we watched that movie Thirteen (bit over the top), and then all day Saturday and Sunday I was fixated on this new game called Singles. Within 2 days of playing it my couple was married, yay! I've used the word 'good' a lot in this paragraph :/

Um, aside from that all that's left to say is my neighbour still creeps me out. I dunno, maybe he's just lonely or something but I get this vibe. If you don't see me online again, it will probably be due to him *shudder*

Anyway it's quite late and I want my dinner. Good ol' Subway!!!

Afterthought

I listen to music while getting ready in the mornings and this morning that song The Real Slim Shady by Eminem came on and I realised: I can't listen to this song anymore without thinking of that Futurama episode where it has the original Star Trek cast (except Scotty) and Kirk does this spoken word recital of the song! Makes me giggle :)

Oh, and 2018 visitors? Why aren't you people commenting? :(

Why men suck (sometimes)

You know sometimes when something is bothering you, and you want to talk it over, but the other person doesn't want to? This is why men suck. Oftentimes the problem will be ignored, thus how is it expected to be gone, forgotten and not brought up again? Ok, so I wanna talk about something, so I bring it up. When it is slid under the carpet it still gets to me, I want answers, so I bring it up again. In the end all you do is get frustrated with each other and the problem is there to stay. And then you complain when it is again mentioned at a later date. What do you guys expect? If something is important to one person it should be important to both. Instead of saying you don't know what to say, or "What do you want me to say?" just say something, anything, to give us a freaking idea of what the issue means to you. Please. Being met by silence or empty glances is worse than anything you could possibly say.

I suspect I shall delete this post at some stage. For now, I just wanted to write, to release.

Time off?

Isn't the 4 day break meant to be a rest and rejuvinate you? Mine sure hasn't been! Well, no, it hasn't been stressful, just a bit of running around. Oh, I should have started by saying Happy Easter, or Happy Chocolate-eating Festivus to those that don't celebrate Easter.

I came down Thursday night, drive was the most stressful drive ever because the traffic was just insane. Mostly going in the opposite direction but it meant I couldn't pass anyone. After getting here and having a bite to eat I really wanted to go and hire the Schindler's List DVD since it just got released Wednesday finally, so we went to a couple of video stores on the search but no luck. We went to visit John though, our old housemate, and that was great since he always cracks me up. Then we watched this movie called The Dreamers which was, err, very wierd. Not recommended unless you like some crazy brother and sister action. *shivers*

Friday was the day we did absolutely nothing. Although I think I slept funny and my shoulder was sore all day so I spent a lot of time trying to lie or sit in some comfortable way and having no luck. Lots of pain, but all better now. We ended up getting Schindler's List that day though so that cheered me up.

Saturday, my parents' place for lunch. Fussing over you not eating enough, take this home with you, why didn't you park in the drive, and so on and so forth. A great day when they finally stopped fussing and just let us chat. Got home, attempted to play this game Sacred but it has lots of pretty big bugs in Coop mode so that idea went down the drain. Watched a great football match, logged on and had another late night.

Yesterday, yes, I actually went to church! I do that sometimes, and I find it a great escape. Then had a quiet afternoon until catching up with a few people. Played online some more, then watched Passion of the Christ, ending up another late one. I really should have gone to bed earlier, all weekend the earliest I went to bed was 2:30am so my body clock is all stuffed up now and I probably won't be able to get up for work tomorrow.

Leaving for home in less than 3 hours, have eaten too much chocolate and have lots more left. Easter ain't no rest!

Words of Wisdom

I got the best email today (which was probably sent two days ago because our email is acting up). It's rare for these types of emails to grab my attention but I could sure relate to this so just gonna put it in here.

As I've Matured...
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in...
I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jack-asses. (Ain't that the truth!)
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it (I really have to pay attention to this one).
I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm. (Not sure I agree with this)
I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off.
I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.
I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things.
I've learned that ex's are like fungus, and keep coming back.
I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.
I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.
I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.
I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the butt are permanent.

Not an original blog but meh :P

Do you ever got those days...

... when you actually have a little self confidence and feel a bit better about yourself? That very rarely happens with me, but I'm having one of those weeks I think. My self esteem can get pretty low most of the time, but I think lately I've been realising that I'm not so bad dammit, even if I'm not as thin as I'd like to be. I have a great job, great people in my life, so why not look on the bright side and be happy instead of thinking of what I don't have? For me, this is a real epiphany, and I don't know whether it will last or if this is just a temporary thing. Could it be because I'm turning 25 in a few months? Does that age somehow mean I think clearer and realise what the important things in life are? Or it could just be this 'legalised speed' I'm taking and next week I'll go back to being down again, who knows.

Still no time to blog!

This has been the longest break between blogs I've had for a while because work has been flat out this week. I was taking Friday off as well as leaving early on Thursday afternoon so I worked a few extra hours during the other days so I wouldn't fall too far behind.

So a quick rundown of what's been happening since my last post I guess. The LAN last Saturday was great fun, with us getting home at around 4am. Monday I had to call the police because my neighbours wouldn't stop screaming at each other, and for once I actually listened to what they were saying and found he was drunk and had been hitting her. Things have been extremely quiet since that I wonder whether or not they're both still actually living there. Monday I started medication which doesn't let me sleep much. I was gonna keep it quiet but who cares, the people that read this are close to me anyway. The medication is also known as 'legalised speed' and so last night was the first time I've had 6 hours sleep in a week. I came to Adelaide Thursday night instead of Friday because my cousin Linda was down from Toowoomba with her fiancee who we hadn't met yet so we went out to dinner. He's a little younger than her but he's such a nice guy. I don't think she's ever even dated anyone before so this guy must be really special. Friday we did nothing except watch some dvds, and yesterday we went to the footy with Mum, Dad and Maria which was cool.

Later today I drive back to Berri, which is the part of the weekend I hate most. Once I'm back there it's ok, but the drive sucks. Especially because I am so tired at the moment too. And now it gets darker earlier, I'll be leaving in only 4 hours so Sundays go way too fast.

I've just sat here for 5 minutes trying to think of something interesting to say. I've failed. Ah well.